And Again, This Is SO STUPID.

I seriously can not stand how I'm handling my emotions lately, and it's like there's nothing I can even do about it. What the hell. I just start think about random things and then I start to cry. I shouldn't even be worrying about anything. I shouldn't be thinking and over analyzing so much, but like i said, I can't help it. You know, it's so ridiculous. I just feel like I can't ever make anyone happy. I don't understand. Why do people change so much. Why aren't things the way they should be, the way they're supposed to be. I feel so fucking left out sometimes and it drives me absolutely insane and I just wanna go home. How come even in the midst in all of the chaos, when I was back home, everything still seemed okay. I just want everything to be good. I don't want to feel like I'm so out of place. Another thing that's making me crazy is when people change. They act one way and then all of the sudden change. Or sometimes they just change depending who they are around. Normally I wouldn't care too much, but it's like when that person is with their friends, just hanging out, they seem so much happier than when they're with me. I don't get it. And then it's like they do certain stuff with their friends, but nope, not with me. How is that even fair? Yeah I don't even know. I seriously just wanna cskdjfskljfskljfd!!!
I'll write more later. I'm at a serious loss for words. That's how upset I am right now.